The sadness that I have felt, I cannot explain to you, but I know that this has been a time in which I have grown so much.
My wedding day was a very special day for me, I wasn't sure though how to act. This was suppose to be the happiest day of my life but at the same time I was experience so much pain and sorrow. I had decided the night before my wedding that I was going to make my day my day. At first I thought that is so selfish how could I do that. But I knew that if I had been sad, it wouldn't be the day that I have dreams for many years.
With the strength of the Lord I was able to find great strength in that day. My mom helped me get ready, which was bitter sweet, considering Michelle should have been there also. But the Lord did strengthen me. My wedding day could have not been any better of a day. I felt so beautiful and I was so happy to be marrying my best friend (who has brought me the greatest strength during this hard times). Not only was that a great aspect, but so was the weather and the spirit that I had felt in the temple. The the guy who was suppose to marry us (the sealer) spoke so many words which brought me comfort during that time. A spirit was in the temple that I cannot explain. Maybe it was the spirit of my sisters presents, maybe it was the spirit of God, maybe both. Needless to say it was wonderful.
Stepping out of the temple and seeing so many that I love, also brought me so much joy. I was so thankful to see some of my close friends like Virgil, Bethany, Lara, The Brownings, etc.
The Pink balloons represented my sister at my wedding. :)
I am so thankful that we were able to be married that day. I am thankful that I have a loving Heavenly Father who cares so much for me. I know that I find strength in Him.
More to come about my life and the things that have occurred!
